Say Goodbye to 2009 !! :)

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TAGGED BY Bear ♥

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage : Water
2. Last phone call : My beloved sister
3. Last text message : Dillon
4. Last song you listened to : BY2 - 不够成熟
5. Last time you cried : Watched drama :S


HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice : Yup !!
7. Been cheated : Ya. ><
8. Kissed someone & regretted it : Had. I was stupid before. Sighs ><
9. Lost someone special : Hmm. Maybe no ? Because I will get one more soon.
10. Been depressed : When I'm alone and everyone didn't notice me.
11. Been drunk and threw up : Not so seriously ya.


LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Black
13. White
14. Grey


THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend : A lot. I wish to meet more and more in next year.
16. Fallen out of love : Ya. It looked like fireworks. x)
17. Laughed until you cried : Had. Happened a lot of touching stories aound me.
18. Met someone who changed you : Yes, thanks you !!
19. Found out who your true friends were : Yes !
20. Found out someone was talking about you : Good or bad ? Both also got I guess.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list : No. :P
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life : Innumerable. BFF =)
23. How many kids do you want? : One girl and one boy !! :)
24. Do you have any pets : No. Hope get a doggie soon.
25. Do you want to change your name : Nope.
26. What did you do for your last birthday : Had a sweetie celebration with my buddies. x)
27. What time did you wake up today : 12.30 pm.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night : Chatting + Facebook.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for : My eighteen birthday. xP
30. Last time you saw your Mother : Had dinner with her just now.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : I hope someone to be with me and share all of us.
32. What are you listening to right now : Peace ~!
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : If I'm Jerry ? ^^
34. What's getting on your nerves right now : Going to get my contact lens afterwards.
35. Most visited web page : Windows Live Messenger, blogspot, facebook, google ....
36. Whats your real name : Yap Scze Xing
37. Nicknames : Rachel ? Stingray ?
39. Zodiac sign : Pisces
40. Male or female : Female.
41. Elementary? : Good Baby Kindergarten
42. Middle School ? : SJK (C) Chong Hwa
43. High school / college ? : Chong Hwa Independent High School
44. Hair colour : Black and brown.
45. Long or short : Short.
46. Height : 163cm gua.
47. Do you have a crush on someone ? : Yes !! x)
48: What do you like about yourself ? : A strong but a little crack of the hearts.
49. Piercings : Four.
50. Tattoos : Nope.
51. Righty or lefty : Righty.


FIRSTS :

52. First surgery: Nope.
53. First piercing: When I was four. :)
54. First best friend : Chiew Yen.
55. First sport you joined : I do not have athletic cell. =(
56. First vacation : Australia.
58. First pair of trainers: Chiew Yen ?


RIGHT NOW :

59. thinking something more simpler than 1+1 = : Smile !! =)
60. Drinking : Saliva ?
61. I'm about to : Answer those question. :S
62. Listening to : Falling for you
63. Waiting to : The arrival of tomorrow


YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids ? : Yup !!
65. Get married? : I wish to marry a rich and handsome guy. x)
66. Career : Success + earn $$$


WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes : Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses : Kisses. *muacks*
69. Shorter or taller : Taller. Can be a model !! x)
70. Older or younger : Definitely younger ya. ><
71. Romantic or spontaneous : Romantic.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms : Nice stomach. I prefer S body shape. xP
73. Sensitive or loud : Sensitive ?!
74. Hook-up or relationship : Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant : Both also dislike ya.


HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger : Nope.
77. Drank hard liquor : A few.
78. Lost glasses/contacts : Ya. Careless-nya. ><
79. Sex on first date : Nope.
80. Broken someone's heart : Ya.
82. Been arrested : Nope.
83. Turned someone down : Maybe yes ?
84. Cried when someone died : Yes. They treated me good ya. :S
85. Fallen for a friend ? : I loved to play and rebel since Junior Middle Two


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself : Of course.
87. Miracles : Ya. x)
88. Love at first sight : Yes. Maybe that's not good for me.
89. Heaven : Yes.
90. Santa Claus : No. I never receive x'mas present in the midnight.
91. Kiss on the first date : Ya. x)
92. Angels : Hmm. Yes.


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/ boyfriend at a time : Yes. ;)
95. Did you sing today ? : Nope.
96. Ever cheated on somebody's relationship ? : Yes.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would go : Since I am a kid. :)
98. If you could pick a day from last year,what would it be ? : From this year, maybe got a lot. But for last year, I will say NO !!
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? : Nope. I love to love U. x)
100. Posting this as 100 truths? : Sure !!

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.


I tag :

Annabel, Bear, Weili, Cherry, Elinen, Alyn, Shalane, Steph, Valerie, Wei Hsing, Yvonne, Thian Qian, Kok Wai.

Escape. No way !

Today, finally take a deep breath. Heart is always stuffy, and I do not know what is that ....





Hmm. After exam we went to eat vegetarian., then Qi Dong dropped us at Brem Mall for a movies. Twilight New Moon. At the beginning of movie I'm still fuzzy state, because I did not very know all the characters and plot. After watched, the feeling ? I did not know what to say.



If one day I changed to what seemed to Bella to wait as her beloved, then what will be happen ?

Forget, you must call me silly, idiot, and told me it was not worth it, but those I know and understand it, is it really so easy to do ? I am making every effort forward to do it now.

A reality that I have to accept.

You dedicate me courage, please.

He and I signed a divorce agreement.

Time blink of an eye again came to the end of this year. Now go back a look, there are always a lot of things have been I have missed, ignored, or even regret. Is really too late, and not always so fortunate to get an U-turn, missed should say good-bye.



Confined and wronged myself to love a person would be too hard. However, the courage to love a person, nor is it a very easy task. I never want to be a third party, but do not want to wander without any hope of love. It brings nothing but only pain and hate.

I only hope that next year's luck with the opposite sex prosperous, but not rotten. I need happiness, and love that you can give me.

Start from Junior three their love, I have watched their love grow up has been four years since unknowingly. I felt very envious of them, and each other's trust, intentions, care, concern. Among bit by bit, must be properly treasured. Because some of the things you loved can't find in the next paragraph of love already.

♥

The Sun rise from east.

Examinations were divisions of a paragraph again and to be continue next week. I have just returned home and felt hungry stomach, so I cooked a Maggi Hot Cup. But I really no mood to eat, because my heart is in tears, or still bleeding ?




Yap Scze Xing !!!! You're not a very hard-hearted ? Soft-hearted is not your style, everything you are self-inflicted, and not other people's fault. You cannot blame someone else.

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.

The Earth's rotation would not stop because of him, and I still want to color my life. Perhaps my point was not his to stay so I still have to choose to continue flying. Now I should do it for our love of painting to a successful conclusion. ♥



Thinking : Do not know where my next stop it ?

I quit.

I look forward to get a sweet kiss in the heart. There is no such feeling for a long time. I know that from now on, I do not longer day-dreaming, because he could no longer belongs to me.

Although he had been promised a commitment to me, so what ?

I'll never guessing his heart. I am really fail.

I am sorry, I do not lack self-confidence, but I really do not know how to continue my love. ♥

Love in a Flash.

烟花绽放的那一瞬间

它的魅力无法阻挡

可是当它消失的那一刻

总是令每一个人失望

观看的每一个人都无法预测它的结束

只能享受当中的完美

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他我的爱情 ....　是烟花吗 ?　

.

结束了,　就只能在心里留恋 ?

不知道现在的他 .....　是不是和我一样 ?

在我们的爱 ... 继续绽放烟花

让它永不停止 ... 好吗?

Addicted to caffeine.

" What will Scze Xing Yap be doing in 10 years ? "

Bear : " Buying me coffee ! " :D

Hey Dude.

May I take an U-turn ?


I'm suffered.


Don't know what's he thinking of me now. x)

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Bleeding ♥

你知道吗 ? 不能完成功课的后果又多么的难受吗 ?

无论你怎样喊累, 都没有人来帮助你 ...

我的眼泪始终没有掉下来 .... 可是我的心还是很痛 ...

当别人问我时, 我总是说没事的 ...

因为那种痛, 我不知道怎样说出来 ...

我过着的每一天 都幻想着一万个我们再次遇见的画面 ....

只要碰触到相关的, 我都一直在回想以前 ...

可是, 你的心里也许已经忘记怎样叫叶诗杏了吧 ...

别人常说爱一个人不一定要拥有他的一切 ...

幸好我还有它 ... 没有了它, 也许我就不能那么坚强到现在了 ...

对不起 ... 如果不小心伤害了你 ....

♥

Painful and broken heart.

我的爱情

不需要奢侈

我只渴望属于我唯一的爱 ....

经营一段感情 对我来说, 像是我不想做的功课 ...

它带来了让我感到再次拿不到作业分, 令我知难而退的恐惧感 ...

现在 也许是我受到惩罚的时候了 ....

因为我的功课无法完整地做完 ....

心里的痛 已经不是在我选择做功课前的那样轻微了 ...

接下来的, 应该是一大堆的考试了吧 ...

希望我孤军作战 能撑得过来 ...

Sorry to everyone.

我尝试了 你始终还是没有出现

现在 我已经不知道该怎么办了 ...

我也不想再猜测你这样做的原因

坚持到最后 会有什么的结果 ?

结果 会是我一直想要的吗 ?

如果 我选择了逃避呢 ?

之后 我还能撑过来吗 ?

逃避 太胆小了 ....

放弃 对我会开心吗 ?

没有了你 我会过得怎样 ?




所有的所有, 都在我一直认为我能玩得起的程度下

其实 我已经开始 认真了 ....

对不起 我欺骗了自己 也欺骗了很多人 ....

我输了吗 ??

Missed. Lost. Act. Apprear.

若无其事 也被看穿

我的眼泪 掉不出来

我的心情 定不下来

我的笑容 也不像是

我的冷静 也担心了

我的潇洒 没有用了

我的脑海 想着的一直是你

难道你真的没有想念我吗 ?

你到底把我放到哪里去了 ?

第一个24 我已捱了过去

第二个24 我努力地撑着

第三个24 你出来好吗 ?

Saved from the lost.

Yuuuuuupi. I am a shopping alcoholic. Once going to shop then my mind get fresher and flying to the sky. Today I went to Sungai Wang for bargain shopping with Weili. I bought a skinny jeans (only 25 bucks !!!!), two singlets, sunglasses and a key chain. Haha. ;)

Tomorrow I'm going to date with my baby yo. It's soooo exciting. I got fever and can't wait anymore to see him. Muacks. x) Hmm... On Sunday till Tuesday, I will go to travel with my family. A lot of destinations that I even never go before. So you wanna me to bring you some present ? Yuup, I will. That's air, fresh air after I "ate". LOL. xD

B. Stop asking me non-sense question. Argh. It's only brings me worries and insecurity feeling.

A ton of ♥s

LOVE ♥ LOVE




一对情侣，

女的要有男的大量，

男的要有女的细心。

原来爱情是一种学问，

有时不需要用理性来判断，

也不需要得到什么答案。

珍惜你现在所拥有的，

放下之前发生过的。

简简单单，

这就是现在我想要的。

Poison is Love.

Yo yo yo. Today already is Friday. What a bored day. My class totally got seventeen people absent. Sighs. Include Wei Li and Cherry. Nobody go to canteen with me, also no one gossip with me about .... .. x)

Hello. How much you love me ? ;)

D poison. x)

Wee. Have a shortly break today. Lol. Today morning I was late to school. I woke up at 7.20am. Gosh. I rushed to parents' bedroom to wake them up. Daddy said me so lucky. Because today is Saturday so the road is so "free". Haha. I reached at school about 7.50am only. Left 10 minutes to do revision for Chinese exam. How cool ya ?! x)

Last time I told him that he did something I don't know. Even I also don't know how to ask him. But then he asked me to control him better if in the relationship with him. Walao. That's the most I don't know how to do. Control ?! It's funny.

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha. I don't know.

* Everyone thought I am hanging out with him today.


Who know ?! He is sleeping now. =.="

My love my love. Nothing else I can to feel.

Goodbye my love.

Sigh. Holiday is going to the end. One more days to trial. Good luck ya. ;) Hmm. Actually I didn't study anything during this holiday. How noob am I ?

Although just left one day, I must to study from this moment because of my siblings and the guy. I don't care he wanna play with me or what. But I won't step into your heart anymore. From now, I wanna be a clown. Keeping smile everyday. Thanks for your remind at facebook. Come on my heart. Stitch already not in my world. Take care yourself guy.




Relationship status : It's complicated with Scze Yuen Yap. x)

Love Is Magical.

Why I love him until crazy ?! Thinking of him in every time, every minutes, every second ... .. Once he busying to do his stuff, I sure can't be concentrate in everything.

Love is magical ? I think so.

Argh. I found something while posting. I cried for my sister. How come that guy hurted her like this ? The guy come back to Malaysia tonight. What the .. I really moody to ask him clearly about this anymore. Even me, he also didn't decide to explain to me.

" I hate you !!! "

Now, I already understand that's why my sister so caring of me this time. She don't want me get hurt from anyone and was trying to protect me, but she fail to do this. Because I am naughty. Because I didn't listen to her. Because I thought she's trouble maker. Although I'm not regret to make this decision, I just blame on myself that why didn't think clearly what she told me. Isn't so important for me ?! I'm not sure.


Bibi. Let me know more about yours. I really don't know what you're thinking of and wanted to be. Don't let me be alone, ok ? I love you, do you ?

The riddle.

I'm moody now. The truth ... Should I .... ?! Why I can't trust him through my heart ? Tell me that's why I didn't.

WHY ????

Love is a game ?! Why ... ..

I ♥ YUEN.


Be happniess ya.

Don't so upset and easily give up.




Good luck. Bless ~

BabyChiak.

No worries bibi. I love you.

I won't leave simple say :
"I don't love you anymore." and leave you alone here.

You too. Don't simply break up with me.






If not .... ..






Hmm. It's impossible.





Because you already got my poison. Haha.




Lee Kai Suen is mine !!! muacks.

"Double"-ing life.

Oops. Due to network problem, I can't updated my blog before.

Hmm. Bring a good new to you all.

Someone grabbed my heart. His name called Lee Kai Suen.




xoxo.

Getting well.

Woo. They are my classmates. ♥

I ♥ YOU

Hee. Finally I date with him yesterday night. How sweet ya ? We watched movie without couple seat. Sigh. He kept on to make me laugh but I didn't bother him. Haha. Now he tried to tell me a lot of jokes (actually it's not funny), I laugh. Kakaka. xD Hmm. Whole night still keeping a lot of secrets. LOL. You, her and him still only seventeen ya. Blek x)

I ♥ DATING !!!!!!!!!

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This moment .. I am cooking cheese pasta for myself as breakfast.

Don't call me FATTY.

Because I'm a sexy fatty. xD

The moment already over.

What is colour ?

We are in a world where colours dominate our lives, from reading signs on the road to seeing if fruit is ripe to eat.

It affects our moods - blue is calming - red can make us tense.
We use and experience colours everyday in our lives without even appreciating it.

If the world become black and white ? ....

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In The Afternoon ...

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Now, I found that everyone is living in full of warm and happiness environment. I am envying of them. No, is all of everyone. Hmm. How to say this ?? I saw and felt happiness throught my sister and her boyfriend's mind. They kept their love and heart to each others. Not same as me. I can't do well in everything now. Including homework, study, money, love, friendship too I think. Look .. I am a troublemaker.












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To W :

I'm tired of everything now. Really hope you can be with me now, but cannot. Miss you so much.